Love, Loss and Friendship

I just wanted to say thank you to everyone here for your support. I had not been on here much for a week following Patrick's death and honestly, I was not doing well, staying closed up in my room only coming out to handle arrangements for his remains. When I finally decided that I needed a distraction, I logged on here and to my surprise there were all of these messages offering love and support and I just cried because I went from feeling so alone with the loss of a dear friend to feeling supported by other friends, people I have never met but I feel as if I know. As I began reading these messages I learned that one of my special friends here had posted a journal entry featuring one of my photos, his name is John De Bord (kkart) kkart.deviantart.com and his journal entry touched my heart. kkart.deviantart.com/journal/1…

JOHN, THANK YOU. YOU KNEW I NEEDED SUPPORT AND YOU GAVE IT AND BROUGHT ALONG MANY OF YOUR FRIENDS TO SUPPORT ME AS WELL. YOUR KINDNESS HAS ALWAYS BEEN PRESENT IN ALL OF THE HELP AND ADVICE YOU OFFER BUT ON THIS DAY YOU WENT A STEP FURTHER AND REACHED OUT DURING A TIME WHEN I SO NEEDED TO BE COMFORTED, THANKS FOR MAKING ME SMILE.

I know the days ahead will not be easy, Patrick has been a part of me and my life for so long and I am feeling lost at the moment. I will miss so many things about him but mostly his humor, we would always laugh together and the laughter has been quieted. Patrick and I would bicker constantly, we had been room mates and friends forever, the bickering was just a part of who we were and we would disagree with one another just to disagree, this is where I have to come to terms with things because I feel as if there have been so many wasted words that never reflected the actual feelings that were being felt. I hope somehow, he knew that he really was my best friend. (along with Mikey my cat, Patrick hated sharing the title with Mikey)
I also hope that where ever he is, he is at peace and his pain, I hope it has been lifted. I know for the rest of my life, I will miss him.

Thank you everyone for all of the support and thank you John for being who you are.